I guess I’ve officially been broken down. I’ve never felt like this before in my life, but I just give up. Just keep my head down and stay out of the way as much as possible. I found out the oncology unit I used to work for as a CNA is hiring. I applied, and talked to my old coworkers, but I’m not getting my hopes up. I’m pretty much a blank slate right now.
Its gotten to the point where I dread going to work. I enjoy my job, I love my patients, but I haven’t felt so attacked, so small, and so helpness from those who should be there to help me ever before in my life.